I'm always going to have to choose. And the decision is always going to be hard and not what I really want because I just have make sure you are happy. I want to make a decision based on my own wants and needs. It just kinda sucks. I have so much fun with them. I feel like I belong. I don't feel like the black sheep of the family over there. I'm always gonna be a reminder of your mistake. And no matter what I do, it'll always be that way.